Catching up, or falling behind

I can't believe I haven't posted in 5 months. I have been so busy. Let's see how many things we can knock out here in one post.

I've started volunteering at a local ministry called Kids 4 Christ. K4C provides bible lessons aimed for under privileged children in our area from the ages of 3 to 8th grade, though there are some above 8th graders that can't really be sent away. That is what I have been doing, helping teach in the teen classroom. It's right up my alley really, teenagers. It has been a lot different than teaching the youth group, but I still really enjoy it.

I have taken over as Relay Center Coordinator for Operation Christmas Child at my church. I actually did this at the beginning of the year, but it is just now really kicking into high gear, and man I didn't know what I was getting myself into at all. I feel so overwhelmed by all of it. The guy who did it last year worked a full time job AND went to school. I have no idea how he managed it. I can't even name all of the things I have to do with that.

Let's see, Hannah has started pre-school, and I am striving to be that woman I always wanted to be.....and failing miserably. I know it is possible because the school is filled with them. I am even friends with some of them. You know who I am talking about....the mom who is bright, cheery and shiny at 7 o' clock in the morning, brings cupcakes to school for her child's birthday, volunteers every afternoon, and all of the teachers know her by name and ask how her husband is doing every time they see her. And then there is me.....Hannah has been late 8 times already (never more than 5 minutes, but it still counts) I forget her lunch at least once a week, struggle to find matching socks every morning and, I'll admit it, skip giving her a bath at least one night a week out of pure exhaustion.

I did volunteer a few times, and I think that counts toward my list. I enjoyed it, but with Brian home I really just prefer to spend my time with him. I know eventually he has to go back to work, financially speaking the sooner the better, and I want to get all the time I can with him now.

The youth group is a mess right now. Over the summer we lost most of the kids, and though the numbers are growing again, my motivation has mostly tapered off. I am feeling very discouraged because of how quickly the relationships I spent so much time on vanished into thin air. I feel like I am talking to a group of total strangers again. I know nothing about their lives and what they are going through, which makes it very difficult to make lessons. I'll be the first t o admit, I haven't been trying very hard. I used to do more, but I am in a bit of a funk with the whole thing right now, and I can't seem to motivate myself to work toward it.

Another thing I can add to the list, I have finally admitted that I am still dealing with depression. Working toward getting insurance now. That was a big step for me though. I liked pretending I was fine, just a little moody, but that is just not true. Hopefully soon, I can get some medicine.

Let's see, if my last post was number 7, now I am on number 12, after today. That helps.

Some other things I would like to accomplish before the end of the year....I have been trying to get into the habit of doing one craft with the girl's every day. We have only done about 2 since I said I wanted to do that so I can't count it yet, but I want to have that going before January 1st.

I would also like to get the baby sleeping in her crib. We started a new routine a few nights ago, but Brian went camping last night so both of the girls slept with me, so now we will have to start all over.

There is more but this is already long and we have places to go. Leave comments :)