Super Chelle?

Ok, ok, I know that complaining is not healthy. I know that misery loves company, and I really don't want to bring anyone down, but I have to get some stuff off my chest right now!!

Usually when I do this it helps me to remember the things I am thankful for anyways.

So here we go: As everyone knows I am a youth leader at my church. I love my "job" (I don't get a paycheck, that's why I put the quotes around job). I enjoy the kids. I know I am doing what God wants me to do and I wouldn't dream of quitting. However have you ever tried to do anything with teenagers? No one warned me, going into this, how much work it was really going to be. If you are considering working with teens, know this it is not something to go into lightly. Commitment is an understatement.

I spend 60% of my day working on lessons, planning events or working directly with the youth. I spend the other 40% thinking about the lessons, events and youth themselves. I have given more than my time, I have given my heart and soul. My entire being belongs to a group of 15 year olds (with a few pieces left over for two babies and the hubster).

Of course, what comes along with that every now and then, is hurt. I am an emotional person. When I love it is with everything I have and it makes me very vulnerable. Of course it my own fault, not the teens.

I am a victim of human-itis. Meaning, I am not perfect and I often forget that. I want to be able to get the best lessons every time, or the best events planned every time as well as have close relationships with everyone of them. What youth leader doesn't? I truly believe that I am only going through what every youth leader before me has already dealt with.

My prayer is that I remember that I can't do everything. I can't be perfect and it is a good thing. Also that I remember that anything I do for the Glory of God will be blessed, it has nothing to do with me and everything to do with Him. If only my emotions didn't interfere with my memory as well as my mood.